Neuropathy Diary

Saturday's story

Two entries by rainbowfae, from MDJunction,com to finish off the week. She keeps a diary in which she records the effect neuropathy has on her daily life; a good idea if you've got the self-discipline (I wish I had)because it's a disease that tends to have ups and downs and lows but very few highs. The benefit of a diary is that you can be sure of your facts, when you go to the doctor or neurologist after a period of weeks or months plus you can measure the disease against outside influences, for instance, the weather, the seasons, or diet, or exercise, whatever may make it better or worse.

Pain pain go away come never come back another day. Dec 10 2010

Today has been a real bad day with the pain from neuropathy, the tingles I can deal with but when the sharp pains come that make your leg jump in the air are intense tonight. I have taken all my gabapentinalready today so looks like there is no relief tonight, this not sleeping is getting on my last nerve, think i have only had about two nights worth of good sleep in a week, when I see my doctor again going to insist on more pain pills and something that will help me sleep, as well as something for the depression, they say when a person sleeps right there body heals, think I am getting worse because I have not been able to sleep, the tingles are starting to go up my calf to my knee, and earlier today it was in my fingers a little bit, I don't know how much more of this I can take.


November 12,2010

Feels like it is going to be another long night for me, just joined this forum (www.mdjunction.com) which I hope I make some new friends that suffer this pain like I do. Have already taken 2 Gabapentin, going to take my last one of the day here shortly with benedryl since my allergies are acting up again and helps me fall asleep faster when my pain is this bad, Last night was a lot worse was up until six in the morning crying and massaging (which does not help) my legs and feet, have not had a good nights sleep in over 4 months, getting depressed because I love my job but with the pain I feel like it will come to an end soon, but going to try my hardest to hold out for as long as I can, the people I work with know about my condition, but don't think they know exactly how much pain I am in, I tell them to picture themselves walking on glass and that is how it basically feels, they say ouch but really don't think they understand how intense this pain can be, my friend Janet has an idea since some of her family members suffer from this condition, my girlfriend Anita keeps saying she knows what I am going through because she has heal spurs, yea I understand those are painful but she walks just fine almost everyday, I am walking a little funny now a days because it is so painful to walk like a 'normal' person, tonight is a type of night that I just wish that I would die so I would not feel this pain anymore, I am so sick and tired of this pain. Well that is all for today, maybe tomorrow this front will pass and the meds will work better. Crossing fingers and I take the last of my meds today.

http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/my-life-with-neuropathy